Some People!

*Sigh* Some people are just so ugly and rude sometimes!

Only a few times in my life have I ever experienced blatant ugliness to my face. And I guess I was about due for a good dose of it seeing as how it hasn't happened to me in almost 3 years, but it always seems to be a work. And never from my coworkers (we have each other's backs) but from parents or family members.

Last night I was at work and I have been working A LOT the past 3 weeks because we have been so busy. Last week I worked 60+ hours! So I had, had one little night off to recoup and then back to work.

I had been at work for about 4 hours...it wasn't too bad, we were busy but it was manageable. One of the nurses had called and asked me to come to a different part of the unit to help with a sterile procedure. I was to do a sterile dressing change on a central catheter in this one baby. Before I got over to her the nurse had explained to the family (mom was 16 years old and her mother, the grandmother) that my name was Jill and that I would be coming over to do the change. When I got to that part of the unit the family was hovering over the bed so I just got my supplies and let them have their time with the baby while I was getting ready. When we were ready to do the procedure I explained to the grandmother that this was sterile procedure and that we needed them to step out to the waiting room just for a few minutes until we were done. She then turned to me and out loud, in a very ugly voice and in front of my co-workers said, "Well would YOU like to introduce yourself to us and tell us what you are going to do to our baby!?" I was so taken aback that I didn't know what to say at first. It was like a slap in the face and the look she gave me basically told me to "Go To He**". I could feel my face get flushed and all I could do was look at her and respond with what she wanted to know. Even though she already knew.

I was frustrated and embarrassed! After they walked out, the nurse looked at me with wide eyes and started to apologize and said, "that was inappropriate, I just got finished explaining to them what was going to happen." I had to refocus before I started on this dressing change so that I wouldn't mess up.

Some people are so rude and unappreciative. I guess I should have reintroduced my self to her, but honestly I was just so focused on what I was about to do, I didn't feel it was necessary considering she had just been told. I told myself I wasn't going to let it ruin my night but that lady really got under my skin.

It just upset me because I don't come to work for 12 hours to be treated with disrespect! Its things like this situation that can "burn a nurse out" real fast. I understand people are in a bad position and are confused, but don't take it out on the person trying to take care of and help you or your loved one.

Sorry for the rant, just had to get that off my chest. Its been a LONG month at work. Here's hoping is slows down real soon.

Lord, help me to love even when love is not shown to me. Let me be more aware of people's needs and considerate to them. And help me to not become resentful toward people that do me wrong. Please keep me from getting burned out of nursing so soon into my career. Thank you for giving me guidance and patience!

Inspiration

In so many ways music speaks to my heart and inspires me. I recently bought the new album on iTunes by Meredith Andrews titled As Long As It Takes. I just love her and have been a fan since I first heard her music a few years back. I hadn't had time to really sit down and listen to some of the songs until tonight; the album title track and the song Can Anybody Hear Me are amazing.

Although the album title track doesn't have the catchiest tune the lyrics fit me to a "T". The open line reads, "I'm tired, do I have to keep proving myself". After I heard that I was like, "ugg thats so me!" I love and am so thankful for the job I have but sometimes it really runs me into the ground and asks a lot of me and well, I get tired. The song goes on to talk about drawing from an empty well and that related to me as well because recently, I have been spiritually DRY. Needing more of God and not knowing where to begin. Praying hard for rest, energy, resilience, stamina, health and wellness, and frankly just His presence.

Can Anybody Hear Me is another one of the songs on the album that keeps ringing in my head. Its all about crying out to God, and asking if He can hear us and reminding us that He does! Two songs that are truly a blessing to me.

As Long As It Takes

by Meredith Andrews

I'm tired, do I have to keep proving myself

I'm weary and drawing from an empty well

I need You more than I ever have

So Jesus come and shatter my darkness somehow

I won't speak until You speak

I won't move until You move me

I won't sing, sing over me

I will wait as long as it takes

I'm restless for something significant

But I'm helpless cause I've done all I can

I want You more than I ever have

So Jesus come and hold me, I'm shaking right now

I won't speak until You speak

I won't move until You move me

I won't sing, sing over me

I will wait as long as it takes

You are the Comforter so comfort me

You're the Sustainer so be enough for me

You are my Father and Your love for me

Is where I find my rest

I won't speak until You speak

I won't move until You move me

I won't sing, sing over me

I will wait as long as it takes

Fun Day!

So we had a very relaxing, fun day today. Not something that happens very often for us. We slept in until about 10am, got dressed and waited for our exterminator to show up to spray our house. He is WONDERFUL, comes every 90 days, and we have no bugs thanks to him! :) After he left we ran over to Ashley's house to drop off a tent for them to use and then headed over to the AT&T store where I ordered my new iPhone 4! So exciting! Down side, I have to wait a few weeks for it to come in. Here's hoping my old phone holds out until then. We were in AT&T for about 45mins ordering everything and talking to our new best friend Brian who hooked me up with my new phone and all the details. He was also very nice and helpful!

I was then starving so we went to Panda Express in San Marcos for some yummy Chinese food and then to JCPenny to get some shoes for Ehran. I of course had to stop into Saphora, LOVE, (sorry Nocona) and found a new favorite scent I want, Viva La Juicy. So delicious. And Ehran likes it too. ;) The lady in Saphora was nice and gave me a take home sample.

We made a few more stops and then went over to my parent's house so my dad could give us a crash course in how to set up the pop-up camper. We are going to a family reunion (Ehran's side) in two weeks and everyone is camping out on a family member's land for the weekend. Should be fun and probably hot. ha!

Later we went to dinner with my parents at Cherry Creek Catfish Parlor on Manchaca and now I'm doing laundry and getting ready for the rest of the work week. :)

LOVE this!

And this!